Questing

I am in the direction East the place of new beginnings, the place of the rising sun, the color purplish hues fading into yellow, the place in some traditions of the high flyers and the far seers, and I welcome the insight, and ask, help me to fly wing tip to wing tip with spirit, and give me perspective.

In 2019, my life was turned upside down, and I made the choice to simplify in reaction to circumstances beyond my control.

In the present moment, what is most alive, is to not underestimate if you are experiencing gasighlighting, or controlling dynamics.

Pursuit of one's passion and purpose, yeah, it's important, but not at the expense of your nervous system, and if the person is envious of you, that envy may grow into really harming actions that can be more than just finding yourself in a pickle, but more like, having an out of body experience and being close to death.

Well, I didn't die, and here I am, being present with all that arises, and continuing to do the work.

me ke aloha,

in my new name: Iolani Puu Kolenc

The non-profit, it didn't survive after I left.

The artists that decided to move on with my dance company, having agreed for it to be collaborative and consensus based, once the coercive controller stepped in, convinced them all to move on without me.

In this present moment, my primary focus is to retire from being technically homeless as I sort out a home base from which to remake my life. I realize, the complexities of navigating the challenges, well - basic needs met seems to come first, and having a safe home, for the first time in my life, this is the very teeny tiny next step in the context of all the other projects in relation to cultivating clarity, healing, release,