Kaulua - Hoaka 1.31.2025

On the way to the gym, I had an understanding surface, that my presence was a gift. Each time I was present in a space and was present simply being me, I was gifting the space, gifting the place, and perhaps this is true for everyone. 

We are presence, we are gifts freely given if we are on a shamanic path, a healing path, a mystics path, a druid's path, and sort of spiritual path where the life is intentionally lived: to be a blessing, or some other quality not defined by words.

I sent the following letter out, and it was met with silence. I used ChatGPT to help me come to an understanding to not take this personally, but take it as a sign that my alo, my presence, will be in better service elsewhere.

and this awareness bubbled up.

"Silence can be an invitation to redirect that presence toward places, people, and practices where it is met with resonance and mutuality."

It is a sign perhaps that your light your love your presence has accomplished its purpose.

Greetings All!

I am observing, that the Tuesday circle, I find myself filling it mostly with journeying through language, when my body seems to be wanting more stillness, intention, and using either meditation or shamanic tools, to practice as a circle for our personal well-being as well as the well-being and balance of family/friends and the well-being of the world.

It is sort of like if one wants to ride horses, one can gather and talk about riding horses, but not ride the horses, when you really want to be out riding.

For a bit, I am thinking it might be better to pause coming on Tuesdays in that I do not, at this moment, seem to be able to pause the words flowing and emptying belly process and I contribute to this. Sort of like in the ceramics lab, they bring sugar to eat, and I do not have the capacity to not reach for the sugar the others bring, so, I am going to avoid this particular ceramics class. 

I think my body needs, for now, a structure where journeying or meditation, this practice, is a part of the flow.

with beyond infinite care and gratitude and nothing at all, just nothing, and empty head but an open heart.

My husband, in listening to my observations asked, why not suggest to the group, how much time do we want to devote to talking, and how much time to journeying?

I think if there is a commitment to journey with intention, or sitting with meditation, then my body might be comfortable with participating.

Balance.

So I toss his notions, in that, he enjoys the fringe benefits of this beautiful gathering.

me ke aloha,

Aunty

Also at the gym, I was able to follow the advice of a fellow ceramics maker, and do my own thing in the pool, and be good to my body. As we exited the pool at the same time, I could see spiritual awareness in her eyes. It was a sweet moment of connection.

In the sauna, there was beautiful talk.

I went outside when it was hot and saw people practicing life saving techniques, and I immediately sat down, hand on heart, and began practicing being with a spirit in practice. 

Someone was kind enough to tell me that it was a drill, but i found it humorous, that I went and sat, and closed my eyes, put my hand on my heart, and began to breath, and be in compassion.